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This podcast topic came from an article I read from the Promises Treatment Center called How to Get Past the Trap of Self Loathing.
Also in this episode, Felicia shares how she reached nearly 60 days of sobriety and we check back in with Robert who has been interviewed twice on the podcast.
Let me recount an average day for me when I was drinking. I hadn’t event left the house yet, and I had already beaten the total crap out of myself verbally. That is not a healthy way to start any day yet alone when I was trying to get my alcoholism under “wraps”, like that isn’t hard enough. It’s this dang stigma that forced me to be so hard on myself opposed to accepting that I had a disease that made it near impossible to stop drinking after the first one. But what about the issue to even have the first one? Well, that is what I thought I had to do in order to avoid the emotions I was feeling in life.
Stop beating yourself up if you’re an alcoholic. You need your positive vibes and spirit on your team, not standing in front of you as your opponent.
We alcoholics get our butts whooped in a 4 part series in all parts of the day.
- Waking Up: The wreckage of the poison we put into our body is in full affect.
- Waking Up: We verbally rip ourselves apart due to the shame.
- Morning/Afternoon/Evening: Our addictions get some free shots in. This is when Gary (my addiction) starts pacing and telling me how things will be different tonight and that will only have 1-2 beers. That I’m a loser if I can’t drink like a normal person, so let’s get out there and try again.
- Night time or when we are drunk: This is where we find ourselves wondering what the eff happened right before the blackout ensues. Many times I said to myself, “What just happened, I had every intention to not drink tonight but now I’m shit faced and there are 12 oz boxes of wine everywhere. FML. WTF.
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